Memories Of You

My hands tremble

As I reach for you

My voice waivers

As I call to you

My mind races

As I think of you

You scare me

And make me feel safe

You make me happy

And sad

You said you wouldn't leave

And you did

My hands tremble

As I let go

My voice waivers

As I say good-bye

My mind races

With memories of you

You made me so happy

And your memories still do

You said you wouldn't leave

And you did

Gone

I got so used to you being here

That it feels weird that you're gone

I think of holding your hand and

Feel your touch once again

But when I look down

You're gone

I got so used to you holding me

As we fell asleep in my bed at night

I think of your laugh

Sometimes I think I hear it at night

I turn on the light so I can see you

You're gone

I got so used to you loving me

Hearing you say my name

The music in your voice

Some say I should let go

I don't want to but I know

You're gone

I will never stop loving you

Even though you're in a better place

Sometimes I wish that you weren't gone

You were my best friend and lover

And I would love to see you just one more time

You're gone

We could

Lets hold hands

Forget the world for a day

We could go anywhere

Or we could stay right here

Lets do something, anything

And forget the world for a while

We could be each others answer

To a question no one bothered to ask

Lets be friends, best friends, maybe more

And not tell a soul

We could love one another

And no one would have to know

Lets hold hands

And forget the world for a day

Because no one matters but you and me

Oh well

Hearing you say her name

Will that ever become easy?

I die inside a little every time

Because sometimes I wish that was me

That you still cared about

And sometimes I wish you still wanted to hold my hand

But then I think of him

And the feeling fades

Because I know that it's just

A knee-jerk reaction

And it will soon go away

Just like you did

And I'm happier now with him

Then I ever was with you

He makes me smile every day

I smile just at the mention of his name

You had your chance and you lost it

And considering where I am right now

And considering who I am with now

There's only so much I can say

So lets start with

Just a couple of my favourites

Oh well...

All I know

I swear this is the truth

And nothing more

I truly do care about you

That's all I know

I know this is true

Because I can't get

You outta my head

That's all I know

I feel this is true

We could have a future

Cause you make me smile

That's all I know

I want this to be true

You're mine to hold

Cause it's what feels right

That's all I know

You're all I know

Long before good-bye

It hurt more then I thought,

To hear her saying your name.

It's not that I still love you,

Because I don't.

But I should have seen the red flags,

Like when you stopped holding my hand,

Whenever someone else was there.

When a solid "I love you"

turned into a quiet "I love.. you..."

You didn't think I knew,

But you stopped loving me,

Long before you said good-bye.

Pain

No one knows your pain

The way that I do

I can feel each cut on your arm

Like it was on my own

No one knows your hurt

The way that I do

I can feel each tear on your cheek

Like they were my own

No one knows your hate

The way that I do

I can feel each angry thought you think

Like they are my own

No one knows your smile

The way that I do

I can almost see it

Like you're standing right with me right now

No one knew you

The way that I did

But you didn't notice

Or you wouldn't have left...

A lie

I've hurt to many people

I can hear their screams in the night

They haunt me

With every word I say...

...Every lie

I die a little more inside

Because I know I hurt another person

Add another soul to the board

She killed another

That's what the devil says

Whenever I speak a word

A lie

Because the truth is to revealing

And my walls won't allow one out

I've hurt to many people

I can hear their screams at night

As the devil takes another life

Human

She is a bright girl

Yes

But also quite slow

I guess...

The things her friends say about her

They don't know it hurts

Because she is "slow"

She just tries to work through it

She is a great friend

Yes

But not always there...

Okay...

She struggles with family problems

And sometimes becomes distant

She just needs to work through this one thing

Then she'll be fine again

She is a role model

Yes

But not always

umm, okay..?

She tries her hardest to be someone

That kids can look up to

Someone she never had as a kid

But some people don't see it

She is human

On some level

Love

 Originality

  Variety

    Experiences

Everyday is a new experience so remember

Variety is the spice of life

Originality is what makes us... well us

Love is what we live for

Because people love us

Our originality

Our personality

We can love us... one another to maybe

We can Live

Because everyone is Original

People have Variety and personality

People are Exceptional

And everyone is different

Including you and I

Lets be different together maybe?

And then one day

Love on some level

Will find us.

Stop...

I've been told to follow

  Follow my heart

  My dreams

  This person or the next

It's like I am playing a lifelong game

A version of Simon says

I'm just following a leader

Just doing what I am told

I've been told to dream

Been told to live them

And in that same breath

They tell me to give up and go home

And the broadest of all

I should follow my heart?

Let it get me into trouble

So people can tell em to do something else

The thing with people is

They always tell you what to do

Never really let you live your life

Let you use your own brain

Stop dreaming and do

Stop listening and think for yourself

Stop following and go

Stop hating and love <3