Mine

You aren't as broken

As they want you to be

You aren't ugly

But they say you are

You aren't alone

But they would like you to be

You aren't evil

But they say you are

You aren't mine

But I want you to be

Small

This space is so small

Cramped

And all other things unbearable

I can't escape

I stretch and stretch my arms

To try to break free of the bonds that hold me down

The room is getting smaller and smaller

I can't breath

I hear voices and try to cry out for help

My words are lost though

Turned into air bubbles

I'm drowning

Trapped in my little box

I can't escape

And the people trying to rescue me are running out of time

And soon

It's to late.

I don't want to cry anymore

You're gone from me now

But hey, I guess I can carry on

Cause the smell of your shampoo

Still lingers in the air

And I've always loved that smell

Even if on days like today

The smell makes me think of you

And I cry

The days drift slowly by

Helping me to forget about you

The pictures

That I had hanging from my mirror

I took them down long ago

Because your smiling face

Just seemed to laugh at me

Saying see, you're just as dumb as they say

Because when you said you loved me

I heard the laughing in your voice

And I guess I thought it was happiness

When in all reality

It was you laughing at me

Because I believed every single word

And your smiles, they turned into sneers

Because you learned to hate everything about me

But hey, you're gone now right

So I don't need to worry about you

Or the pictures I still have in my phone

The ones I can't look at without hearing your voice

And it tells me to move on cause I look like an idiot

When I sit there and cry because you're not there

To hold me and tell me it'll be okay

And that this is just for now

Because my love for you

It's not going to die without a fight

So I guess I'll need to fight it

With everything that I have

Cause I don't want to cry anymore.

I just don't care

People will say I kissed the devil

But baby I don't care

Cause your lips they call to me

And do you know what they say

They tell me to come forward and never go away

They whisper that they love me

And I feel like it's the truth

People will say I kissed the devil

But baby I just don't care 

Cry out with emotion

I want the memories to fade

The waves to wash them all away

Carry me far away

Cause I just want to disappear

Crawl into a hole somewhere

Cry my eyes out for an eternity

The when I emerge

I want to be the only one who knows me

I would love to be surrounded my strangers

So that I could start all over again

Not make the same mistakes again

But I know I will

Because that is what happens in life

We make mistakes

Then we get over them

So when I find that my little hole is not enough

And I want the great big world

I'll crawl out

And start over again.

Dear sister of mine

Dear sister of mine

Don't look me in the eye

Telling me not to cry

Telling me to get up and try again

Telling me to keep my feet on the ground and run

Just a little longer you say

But I know I have miles to go and I just want to stop for a while

But dear sister of mine

don't look me in the eye and tell me it'll be okay

Because you're the distance that's killing me

Because soon I won't look into your eyes and know a reality

You may be one in many

But to me you are many

My sister

My friend

My enemy

I love you

Everything becomes a memory

I’ve taken the next step

Continued on with my destiny

I’m surrounded by my friends and enemies

The rooms divided

And it’s easy enough to see

That the crowd is cheering and taunting me

Some want me to succeed

Some want me to fail

But I guess I’m pointing out the obvious now

Because I take one more step and look up

Only to see the crowd has changed

My friends have thinned and my enemies grown

But even with this I carry on

My head held high

Because this is just the beginning of the battle

And a wise man once told me that I would go far

I very blindly believed him

Because he had no reason to lie

Moments pass and I glance around again

Only to find that I’m alone now

Left to think of the mistakes I’ve made

Holding to the only sign left behind

One that says I’m a loser and I should give up

I recognise the writing as that of one of my closest friends

I put the sign down and walk away

Finding there is nothing left for me here today

All the boundaries that I crossed

All the people that love me

The ones I’ve pissed off

They fade

And soon

Everything becomes a memory

That I will soon forget