A Night Sky Between Us

Looking in to the night sky,
I've never felt so alone.
There isn't a soul in sight,
Minus my 3 legged dog sniffing a bush next to me.
The world is quiet strangely,
And I can't help but notice,
I want to be next to him,
But the wind tells me to stand still.
Feeling like I will grow mad in the silence,
I let the world back in,
No longer fearing its sounds.
"I love you" I whisper in to the darkness,
Knowing that no one can hear me.
I feel in my heart that I just needed to say it.
I wonder for a second if he is thinking of me as well,
Casting the idea aside,
I call to my dog, and I walk home.

I don't know why

Sometimes I hate myself

I don't really know why

I just do

Sometimes I cry

I don't know why

I just do

Sometimes I hate who I am

I always know why

It has something to do with you

Sometimes I cry

And sometimes I know why

Tonight it's because I miss you

This isn't fair

Pay no mind to this shadow across my eyes

I know how much she means to you

I'll take a step back and let her have you

I understand when I have lost

She is better than me, I know it.

Self esteem shattered, fuck it.

Dreams crashed and burned, I don't care.

You love her, how is this fair.

I'll pretend that you holding my hand

Was like an extra long handshake for friends

The loving words you said

Were meant for her or I just misread them

She's nicer than me, that's laughable.

Hearts broken, my tears show it.

I'm crushed, and you don't care.

She doesn't love you, this isn't fair.

No answered prayers

I've cried enough tears

To fill the oceans with salt

Bled all the blood

That I had to bleed

All in your name lord

So why have you forgotten me

Should I sit and be quiet for a while

Maybe

Or maybe I should just give up

Say hey maybe God doesn't exist

But what if he does

Then I would be wrong...

Would it be worth it

I don't know

But all I know is

I am questioning everything

And getting no answers...

I pray every night and every day

But all I get is silence

And a slap in the face

Over and over

I'm fighting with reality

And praying

But none of the prayers are answered...

Someone

There are tears in her eyes

And blood on her arms

She needs someone

There are tears in his eyes

And her bloods on his hands

He was that someone

There are tears in her eyes

And she is holding him

She wants him to be her one

There are tears in his eyes

and a note in his hands

He wants to be her one

There are tears in their eyes

Because everyone needs someone

But no one knows who that is...

Fading to Nothing

What am I doing here?

Can someone tell me?

Anyone?

I honestly don't know...

The people all around me

They look at me

With such sadness in their eyes

I don't know why their crying

Can someone answer me

I don't know why they don't answer me...

Why are you sad? I try to yell

No sound comes out

Am I deaf?

Mute?

I wish I was blind...

Then maybe I wouldn't see these tears

Hear these people crying

Why can't I call out to them

Maybe they just can't hear me

The smells in here are so confusing

I don't know what's going on

I hear a beeping and it starts getting faster

I'm scared

I don't know why

I feel so numb

Why is everyone here?

I don't know

Can someone tell me?

Anyone?

In the distance I hear a lots of beeping

As everything starts to fade.

Maybe One Day

This distance is crazy

My feet are so damn sore

From walking to you every night

You just take one look at me

And then you shut the door in my face

I don`t know why I keep coming back to you

You told me to leave a year or so ago

But I guess I like this pain

Because I keep coming back for more

At one time you called me daughter

Told me you loved me every day

For some reason I believed you

Even though I could hear the scorn in your voice

One day father I hope

Maybe one day you'll let me back in.