It scares me half to death

Like a billion pieces of shattered glass

The idea is amazingly beautiful

In it's own special little way

But I know that it's dangerous

I've seen others in action

And I've heard the stories

And don't get me wrong

It scares me half to death

But I'm willing to take the plunge with you

Try something new

Forget the past

Create a new present

It scares me half to death

But for you I would do anything

So my darling love

I do.

Beautiful

And they say

"For someone so broken,

She sure is beautiful"

While she's thinking

'Why does everyone keep,

calling me broken?'

Because she doesn't see the scars

That crawl up her arms

As being broken.

She see's them as a promise

That she made to herself

Never to be broken again

And no matter how many times

She says this to people

They still say

"For someone so broken,

She sure is beautiful"

Good enough

Tell me where I can lay my head for the night

I don't know where I am welcome anymore

Every step I take is the wrong one

And every word I say is wrong as well

I can't so much as blink, wink, or smile

Without someone telling me not to breath to loudly

Accusing me of being someone that I'm not

Calling me down in front of my "friends"

As they all stand around and laugh

Tell me where I can lay my head for the night

I just need to rest my eyes for a while

Although I don't feel welcome here

And I hear plots for my murder Whispered in the dark

Im told I'm not good enough

That I try to hard

Laughed at for my imperfections

Ostrisized for being different

Being told I am to main stream

Tell me where to place my head for the night

Outline it in careful instructions

Explain it carefully

I don't want to upset you

I just want to be good enough for you

I would bend over backwards for you

But I would probably even do that wrong

You would call me a show off

And send me away

Tell me where I can lay my head for the night

Because I just wanted to be good enough for you.

Together

Together

We can work through this

Together

We can get past this

Together

We can...

What is 'this'?

I don't know

Do you??

Or is this just a game

Is it your game

Mine

Or does it belong to someone else

I don't know

Do you.?

And are we really together in this?

My best friend...

Forever is a word

Forever is a word

A word is just letters

Letters put together make sounds

Sounds make us listen

Listen for the words

The words made of letters

Letters making sounds

Sounds making us listen

Listen to the words

Forever is a word

A word that could be a sentence

A sentence that could mean everything

Everything and nothing

Nothing is just a word

A word that creates its own sentence

A sentence that could mean everything

Everything, but still nothing

Forever is a word

Ending

Walls falling

Eyes closing

Energy fading

Love dying

People are lost

Tears are falling

Dreams are dying

We are separating

I’m falling

Failing

Fading

Dying

Life is ending

I’m not blending

Forever is ending

I’m not mending

To soon

To soon

I spoke well of you

Brought you up to our level

Told people tales, lies

When I thought they were truth

To soon

I turned you into a saint

I made you into someone like me

Someone who would understand

The people who surround you

To soon

My world felt all to perfect

Like someone had painted over all the bad

Took the evil and erased it from our minds

And actually made me believe in you again

To soon

I let my guard down

And thought maybe you would love me again

Thought maybe I could smile again

But with a look you brought me back down again.

To soon

I said I love you

I saw you change before my eyes

You turned into a monster

You spat words like fire my way.

And just like that

My too soon turned into your too late

And I moved on

And left you with your words

Because that’s all they were, words.

Mine

You aren't as broken

As they want you to be

You aren't ugly

But they say you are

You aren't alone

But they would like you to be

You aren't evil

But they say you are

You aren't mine

But I want you to be

Small

This space is so small

Cramped

And all other things unbearable

I can't escape

I stretch and stretch my arms

To try to break free of the bonds that hold me down

The room is getting smaller and smaller

I can't breath

I hear voices and try to cry out for help

My words are lost though

Turned into air bubbles

I'm drowning

Trapped in my little box

I can't escape

And the people trying to rescue me are running out of time

And soon

It's to late.

I don't want to cry anymore

You're gone from me now

But hey, I guess I can carry on

Cause the smell of your shampoo

Still lingers in the air

And I've always loved that smell

Even if on days like today

The smell makes me think of you

And I cry

The days drift slowly by

Helping me to forget about you

The pictures

That I had hanging from my mirror

I took them down long ago

Because your smiling face

Just seemed to laugh at me

Saying see, you're just as dumb as they say

Because when you said you loved me

I heard the laughing in your voice

And I guess I thought it was happiness

When in all reality

It was you laughing at me

Because I believed every single word

And your smiles, they turned into sneers

Because you learned to hate everything about me

But hey, you're gone now right

So I don't need to worry about you

Or the pictures I still have in my phone

The ones I can't look at without hearing your voice

And it tells me to move on cause I look like an idiot

When I sit there and cry because you're not there

To hold me and tell me it'll be okay

And that this is just for now

Because my love for you

It's not going to die without a fight

So I guess I'll need to fight it

With everything that I have

Cause I don't want to cry anymore.

I just don't care

People will say I kissed the devil

But baby I don't care

Cause your lips they call to me

And do you know what they say

They tell me to come forward and never go away

They whisper that they love me

And I feel like it's the truth

People will say I kissed the devil

But baby I just don't care 

Cry out with emotion

I want the memories to fade

The waves to wash them all away

Carry me far away

Cause I just want to disappear

Crawl into a hole somewhere

Cry my eyes out for an eternity

The when I emerge

I want to be the only one who knows me

I would love to be surrounded my strangers

So that I could start all over again

Not make the same mistakes again

But I know I will

Because that is what happens in life

We make mistakes

Then we get over them

So when I find that my little hole is not enough

And I want the great big world

I'll crawl out

And start over again.

Dear sister of mine

Dear sister of mine

Don't look me in the eye

Telling me not to cry

Telling me to get up and try again

Telling me to keep my feet on the ground and run

Just a little longer you say

But I know I have miles to go and I just want to stop for a while

But dear sister of mine

don't look me in the eye and tell me it'll be okay

Because you're the distance that's killing me

Because soon I won't look into your eyes and know a reality

You may be one in many

But to me you are many

My sister

My friend

My enemy

I love you

Everything becomes a memory

I’ve taken the next step

Continued on with my destiny

I’m surrounded by my friends and enemies

The rooms divided

And it’s easy enough to see

That the crowd is cheering and taunting me

Some want me to succeed

Some want me to fail

But I guess I’m pointing out the obvious now

Because I take one more step and look up

Only to see the crowd has changed

My friends have thinned and my enemies grown

But even with this I carry on

My head held high

Because this is just the beginning of the battle

And a wise man once told me that I would go far

I very blindly believed him

Because he had no reason to lie

Moments pass and I glance around again

Only to find that I’m alone now

Left to think of the mistakes I’ve made

Holding to the only sign left behind

One that says I’m a loser and I should give up

I recognise the writing as that of one of my closest friends

I put the sign down and walk away

Finding there is nothing left for me here today

All the boundaries that I crossed

All the people that love me

The ones I’ve pissed off

They fade

And soon

Everything becomes a memory

That I will soon forget

One day

One day I won't cower in fright,
I won't put my tail between my legs,
And slink away in fear.
One day I will stand up for myself,
I won't cry when you yell at me,

For all the things I never did.
One day,
Maybe some day,
But not today.

Slipping

I’m slipping

But don’t catch me this time

I want to feel the fall

Don’t worry

I still love you

That isn’t going to change

I love you too much for it to change

But you’re just so far away

And it’s slowly killing me inside

So when I fall this time

Please don’t catch me

Cause the worst part is the landing

And even though the landing will hurt

I need to feel like I can land

And still have you standing there

I love you, I hate you

I can write it out a million times

But it doesn’t change the way I feel about you

I hate you, I love you

I can’t stand you, I want you by my side

I want you to leave me alone

I never want to see you again

But yet you can pull me back in

With that smile

And those beautiful eyes

You would make angels fall in love

So why should I be any different?

Why should I be able to leave you?

All I want to do is walk away

And all I can do is stand here

Like the idiot that I am

Staring into your eyes

Trying to see into your soul

Trying to see if you even have a soul

Because I seem to be a beautiful mess

And I feel like you can fix me

Make me whole again

Because you say that you love me

And why wouldn’t I believe you

When love is so rare to find these days

And everyone is scared to admit they are in love

So I want to believe it to

That we are in love

And we can live happily together forever

Not worrying about tomorrow

Not worrying about today

The pain in my heart will eventually die

And so will you

But for now I can’t seem to leave your side

You’re all I want

And I can’t make myself move on

You’re always on my mind.

Just a name

Love
What is love
But a feeling
Lust
Hate
Envy
All feelings
Why call it love?
When a rose by any other name
would smell as sweet
Lust, hate, and envy
All go hand in hand
Destroying our love
But still
Why love?
Love stands for
Lust
  Obsesiveness
Vanity and
  Envy
So why love?
When love is just a name
And a rose by any other name
Would smell just as sweet

Why...

Bright, shining like the sun
I've earned my wings I'm done
I've had fun
To bad for that gun

Say good-bye to my brother
Tell sister that I love her
I know I shouldn't hover
So I'll miss you mother

My back breaks and bends
I hope this message sends
It'll be forever before my heart mends
I want to do things before my life ends

I'm floating light like the wind
To bad he sinned
Because now it's the end

Carpe Diem

If this is a dream

Don’t wake me today

Cause I can’t imagine life without you yet

Let me dream for one more day

And I’ll show you that it’s worth it

Because when I’m not with you

The days go by so slow

When I show that I care about you

It isn’t just for show

I really do want to be in your life

And I want you in mine…

So don’t wake me today

Let me live in my beautiful dream

Where it’s just you and me

And we’re all we need

And no one else cares what we do

So we don’t do anything

We just stay together, talking till the sun goes down

Talking about the future like it won’t come

Because tomorrow scares us

And we can’t have yesterday back

There are no ifs, ands, or buts

Carpe Diem

Live for the day

That’s all we need

And that’s all I’ll say

Whenever tomorrow comes up

I say live for the day

And you say okay.

My quiet boy

I knew a boy once

Quiet as could be

I took that boy under my wing

He wasn't such a quiet little boy anymore

He sat in his room and wrote me love songs

Telling me everyday how much he cared

I always loved that boy

From the first day we met

One day that boy decided he didnt love me anymore

He tore up the love songs he wrote

Told me to just go

Leave him alone and never come back

My quiet little boy went back to bbeing quiet

Writing his little songs all alone

He said he didn't love me anymore

as I was walking away I could only bear to whisper

"But... I still love you"

The message

Trapped within these four walls again
Don't know where to start
Can't even tell where it'll end

Poetic lisense
Creating no boundaries for me
Keeping the pages filled

What to say
The messengers here
Standing as a shadow in the doorway

This is hard
To state whats true
The words they form

But I want something new to say
Hell couldn't cause me more pain
Then I cause for myself

So I'll send my message
And hope it reaches him
A simple message, filled with everything

"I love you"

A blind eye

Morning sunshine,
At night your already gone,
I'm so lost in a world were I cannot be found,
I can't see through eyes that see everything,
I'm stuck,
In a world were I have wings to fly,
But at least if I were blind and lost
I could say good morning at night and no one would care,
Because there would be nobody there
The world just presses silence
And pretends I'm not there
I'm the girl with the short golden hair
Who can't dress herself
But this world turns a blind eye on the streets
And I shall always be alone

A teenage life

My lifes a dream
A dream where im screaming
No a nightmare
A nightmare full of darkness
No wait now its light
So bright that I can't see
First its so dark I can't see a thing
Then its so light that I'm blinded
This is the teenage life of being ignored
Or given to much info that we almost drown in it all
This is the teenage life the life I live

Crash

Driving in your car
Make your move
Make it fast
Boy your gonna crash
Grab the brake
Grab it fast
Boy your gonna crash
Emergancie brake
Pull it fast
Make your move
Make it fast
Boy your gonna crash
Pull the brake!!!!!

Crash, bang, boom
Boy why didn't you listen
If not to them
Why couldnt it have been me
Why didn't I save you
Why couldn't I save you
Why Wouldn't I save you
I was screaming oh so loud
Screaming, trying to make you stop
Wish I could have saved you

CRASH!!!
Boy make your move
CRASH!!!
Grab the brake
Put on the brakes
Way to fast
You crash
I wish I could have done more

Beauty queen

She's a beauty queen

But she still looks in the mirror

And sees the girl she doesn’t want to be

She sees the fake smile for what it really is

The words sit behind her lips

But she just can’t say them

She fears the reaction of the people around her

What will they think of the real me?

Will they still want to be my friend afterwards?

But she doesn’t know

She never will

Because she can’t say the words that sit behind her lips

Waiting to be said

But she’ll keep hiding behind her walls

Because no one needs to see her falling

Not even her

So she takes the mirrors from the walls

And throws them to the floor

So she doesn’t have to see herself anymore

But life goes on right

And maybe, just maybe

One day..

She’ll like the person she’s grown to be..