Someone

There are tears in her eyes

And blood on her arms

She needs someone

There are tears in his eyes

And her bloods on his hands

He was that someone

There are tears in her eyes

And she is holding him

She wants him to be her one

There are tears in his eyes

and a note in his hands

He wants to be her one

There are tears in their eyes

Because everyone needs someone

But no one knows who that is...

Fading to Nothing

What am I doing here?

Can someone tell me?

Anyone?

I honestly don't know...

The people all around me

They look at me

With such sadness in their eyes

I don't know why their crying

Can someone answer me

I don't know why they don't answer me...

Why are you sad? I try to yell

No sound comes out

Am I deaf?

Mute?

I wish I was blind...

Then maybe I wouldn't see these tears

Hear these people crying

Why can't I call out to them

Maybe they just can't hear me

The smells in here are so confusing

I don't know what's going on

I hear a beeping and it starts getting faster

I'm scared

I don't know why

I feel so numb

Why is everyone here?

I don't know

Can someone tell me?

Anyone?

In the distance I hear a lots of beeping

As everything starts to fade.

Maybe One Day

This distance is crazy

My feet are so damn sore

From walking to you every night

You just take one look at me

And then you shut the door in my face

I don`t know why I keep coming back to you

You told me to leave a year or so ago

But I guess I like this pain

Because I keep coming back for more

At one time you called me daughter

Told me you loved me every day

For some reason I believed you

Even though I could hear the scorn in your voice

One day father I hope

Maybe one day you'll let me back in.

The Things I Could Do

I could climb the tallest mountain

To prove that i love you

But I'm tired from the battle

So i think I'll stay right here for a while

I could cry all the tears of the sea

To show you how sad I am to see you leave

But my eyes have become dry 

So I think I'll try to smile for a while

I could sit on a cliff and feel safe

If you sat there beside me 

But you've let me fall once before

So I think I'll stand on solid ground for a while

There are many things I could do for you

But the battle has me beaten and sad

So I think I'll just live for me for a while

Let you fight for me now instead.

For One Night

A warm breeze blows my hair

The stars glow brightly above

I walk towards the sound of water

I can hear the beauty all around me

Even if I can't see it

It's better this way I think

I can imagine what the beauty looks like

Pretend it isn't destroyed like it is

The gravel beneath my feet used to be grass

The smell in the air used to be clean

Now all I can smell is burning all around me

But it's nice to pretend

That the reason I can't see the moon

Is because of the trees that aren't around me anymore

And not because of the smoke that has filled the sky

It's nice to pretend

Just for one night.

Change Your Mind

You say you stand for something

You tell others to believe in themselves

Yet I come home every day

See the cuts crawling up your arm

The drugs are in your system

So you just laugh it off and avoid your new "friends"

In a couple days you'll go back

Say "I relapsed, please forgive me"

Then you'll go a couple days

Telling yourself "I'm better, I can do it this time"

In a few days you'll open the bottle again

Take a couple and laugh some more

Or maybe you'll fill your pipe

Take a couple hits and eat till you fall down

Only then you'll call yourself fat and the cuts will grow

The days without eating will start to show

Your friends will ask questions

Your family will try to help

But you've locked yourself in a box

Built up the walls and convinced yourself this is the right way

You find your little bottle

Swallow whats left

Lick your finger and get whats left on the bottom

Make sure you got it all

Because you think you made the right choice don't you

You start to laugh like you always do

Then the world starts to go black and you get cold

You're scared now aren't you

I wish I could have changed your mind

Come here, I'll hold you till the ambulance gets here

No don't worry I called them when I heard you laughing

They will be here soon

It'll all be over soon

Never forget dearest one

"I love you"

The hardest thing I do

Sitting in this meadow

I feel you touch my hand with yours

Pulling away from you is the hardest thing I do

As all around us the rain pours

I look up in to your eyes one last time

And see the hurt that I have caused

Walking away from you is the hardest thing I do

And in that moment I wish I hadn't paused

You take me by the hand

Pull me close and hug me like you never had before

In this moment I feel the tears in my eyes

I can't hide them from you so you just hug me more

I wish I could promise you forever

But we both know that can't be

Forever is just a dream

And unfortunately for us it was one I had for you and me