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I wanted to write a poem

But the words seemed so out of place

My fingers moveed across the keyboard

As I tried to make some sense

Of the thoughts that seemed to pile up

When there wasn't something for me to write on

For days I gave up, hating that damn poem

Walked away after I marked my place

Days later I would return to my keyboard

Finding my rhyme pattern made no sense

The thoughts that had piled up

Were nothing I could actually write on

Five times I wrote that poem

But the words never had a place

I cried out and threw my keyboard

Why doesn't it make any sense!?

I walk over and pick the keyboard up

And find a delete key to place my finger on

Some things I've learned

Here is something I've learned
It's nothing new
Just a little bit of knowledge
From me to you

You can still break a heart
When its already in two
You cant cross a bridge
After blowing it to the moon

You cant cross your fingers
On a promise you need to keep
You can still get lost
With a map if you dont know how to use it

And last but not least
Keep this in mind for the next time you sleep
Not all dreams come true
But the ones you really work on do.

I'm sorry

And in that moment I wonder
Did I scare you away?
Will you ever look at me the same?
Am I so different from all the other girls?
Did I cross a line?

oh god...
Do you hate me?
I love you
Don't you know that?
Why can't I make you see

Perfection
You're perfect for me
Oh.. I'm sorry
I shouldn't have said that
I'm sorry

Reality

Sky full of stars
    But all I see are broken hearts
The wind's blowing leaves
    Like a whisper it says "too late"
The suns gone down
    leaving me in his darkness

Why can't the wind pick me up
    Carry me away
Why can't the rain fall on me
    Wash away this pain
Why can't the sun light up this world of mine
    Chase away the permanent nightmares

On top of a building I feel the wind blow
    Feeling like a feather
The cars rush below me, look at them go
    They don't care
That the city appears to go on forever
    No one stops just to stare

Take in all that's around you
    Before it's too late...
Don't let your sorrows drown you
    banish the hate... Too late
Forever becomes a reality
    When you feel loves cold embrace.

The rose

My skin crawls
The shadow people call to me
It's a dream come true
But not one of those normal dreams
A nightmare
A million eyes watch me
Appearing on my walls
As one becomes a physical being
It steps forward to speak to me
"You're an old and young soul,
Perfect and unnatural,
A wonderful mix of all that is"
I burst in to tears
"Is this my end?"
"Yes" He reaches for my hand
I don't want to take it yet
I think about life
It's beautiful and cruel
Even the prettiest flowers die eventually
But I am far from being the prettiest flower
So why do I deserve to live?
Because I know to acknowledge the pretty flowers?
I don't want to follow this shadow
But I know I will have to
I can't think of a reason I need to be here still
"Can I have one more day?" I plead with him
After a minute he agrees
Leaving me with a smile
And a wonder of whether it happened or not
For a moment I think it's just a dream
Until I look down and notice the rose tattooed upon my arm
It's a reminder with each dying petal that my time is coming
And the reminder that he will return
Keeps me up all night.

Something new

Every day is an adventure
Made only for those prepared to explore
There are traps and tripping hazards
Placed on the path before you
If you walk without looking you  will surly fall

Each day is a battle
We all have our scars to show
They glow under the black light of our hearts
There to remind us that last time it was a mistake
This time won't be any different

Every day we run the risk
That a friend will turn their back on us
But those friends are easily replaced
Because after all
Why keep fake people around

Every day is an challenge
Filled with every day decisions
A new test every day
But at least we learn
It's a beautiful thing we do

Every day is an adventure
Full of battles
And risks
And challenges
But at least we have learned something new.

What happens when I go on a poem generator at 3am [Lover]

We were best friends
And I will tell you before this poem ends
Why I am happy now
So happy that... Meow
What was that all about
You're wondering what I'm on now no doubt

I wrote this poem already
The format was pretty steady
And the rhyme scheme was worse
But I killed it while changing a verse
So here I am again
Writing this time as if at a ten

But here's why I started
at one point we parted
And I missed my best friend
Worried that all we had, had come to an end
three months felt like forever
When we weren't together

I think it was healthier for us that way
What can I say
In that time we grew up a lot
Each with a love not easily bought
Seeing you again after all that time
Was worth the mountain I had to climb

And now our friendship has changed
We are no longer estranged
I can look in to your eyes
And time just flies
I guess it's time for this poem to end
I love you, my lover, and best friend

My forever friend

My best friend for three years

You always wanted to be with me
We finally took the plunge
Was it worth all the fighting
And the break up that crushed me
Is it worth the hate I feel growing some days
That is covered up by the love I feel for you
Is it worth my tears every time I think of you
A learning experience they call it
What did we learn?
That eventually all good things come to an end?
Because that's all I am getting from this.

When I said you ruined everything I wasn't being fair
We ruined everything
For example...
Cuddling you has forever been ruined
Hugging you will never be the same
The song I wrote about you makes me cry now...
All the I love yous feel like a lie.
And why?
Because we insisted on being more
We broke what was a perfect friendship
In the name what we called love
At the sake of our perfect friendship.

Whenever you smile at me now
It feels like a slap in the face
I retreat to a corner in my brain and cry
Scumbag brain says
"Look at that smile, it used to be just for you"
At some point I fell in love with you
I don't remember when it was
But I remembered to tell you everyday
I didn't want you to forget...
And now we're back to friends
So here's 1400 letters to you
My forever friend

We may have ruined everything.
But at least we ruined it together...

A Night Sky Between Us

Looking in to the night sky,
I've never felt so alone.
There isn't a soul in sight,
Minus my 3 legged dog sniffing a bush next to me.
The world is quiet strangely,
And I can't help but notice,
I want to be next to him,
But the wind tells me to stand still.
Feeling like I will grow mad in the silence,
I let the world back in,
No longer fearing its sounds.
"I love you" I whisper in to the darkness,
Knowing that no one can hear me.
I feel in my heart that I just needed to say it.
I wonder for a second if he is thinking of me as well,
Casting the idea aside,
I call to my dog, and I walk home.

I don't know why

Sometimes I hate myself

I don't really know why

I just do

Sometimes I cry

I don't know why

I just do

Sometimes I hate who I am

I always know why

It has something to do with you

Sometimes I cry

And sometimes I know why

Tonight it's because I miss you

This isn't fair

Pay no mind to this shadow across my eyes

I know how much she means to you

I'll take a step back and let her have you

I understand when I have lost

She is better than me, I know it.

Self esteem shattered, fuck it.

Dreams crashed and burned, I don't care.

You love her, how is this fair.

I'll pretend that you holding my hand

Was like an extra long handshake for friends

The loving words you said

Were meant for her or I just misread them

She's nicer than me, that's laughable.

Hearts broken, my tears show it.

I'm crushed, and you don't care.

She doesn't love you, this isn't fair.

No answered prayers

I've cried enough tears

To fill the oceans with salt

Bled all the blood

That I had to bleed

All in your name lord

So why have you forgotten me

Should I sit and be quiet for a while

Maybe

Or maybe I should just give up

Say hey maybe God doesn't exist

But what if he does

Then I would be wrong...

Would it be worth it

I don't know

But all I know is

I am questioning everything

And getting no answers...

I pray every night and every day

But all I get is silence

And a slap in the face

Over and over

I'm fighting with reality

And praying

But none of the prayers are answered...

Someone

There are tears in her eyes

And blood on her arms

She needs someone

There are tears in his eyes

And her bloods on his hands

He was that someone

There are tears in her eyes

And she is holding him

She wants him to be her one

There are tears in his eyes

and a note in his hands

He wants to be her one

There are tears in their eyes

Because everyone needs someone

But no one knows who that is...

Fading to Nothing

What am I doing here?

Can someone tell me?

Anyone?

I honestly don't know...

The people all around me

They look at me

With such sadness in their eyes

I don't know why their crying

Can someone answer me

I don't know why they don't answer me...

Why are you sad? I try to yell

No sound comes out

Am I deaf?

Mute?

I wish I was blind...

Then maybe I wouldn't see these tears

Hear these people crying

Why can't I call out to them

Maybe they just can't hear me

The smells in here are so confusing

I don't know what's going on

I hear a beeping and it starts getting faster

I'm scared

I don't know why

I feel so numb

Why is everyone here?

I don't know

Can someone tell me?

Anyone?

In the distance I hear a lots of beeping

As everything starts to fade.

Maybe One Day

This distance is crazy

My feet are so damn sore

From walking to you every night

You just take one look at me

And then you shut the door in my face

I don`t know why I keep coming back to you

You told me to leave a year or so ago

But I guess I like this pain

Because I keep coming back for more

At one time you called me daughter

Told me you loved me every day

For some reason I believed you

Even though I could hear the scorn in your voice

One day father I hope

Maybe one day you'll let me back in.

The Things I Could Do

I could climb the tallest mountain

To prove that i love you

But I'm tired from the battle

So i think I'll stay right here for a while

I could cry all the tears of the sea

To show you how sad I am to see you leave

But my eyes have become dry 

So I think I'll try to smile for a while

I could sit on a cliff and feel safe

If you sat there beside me 

But you've let me fall once before

So I think I'll stand on solid ground for a while

There are many things I could do for you

But the battle has me beaten and sad

So I think I'll just live for me for a while

Let you fight for me now instead.

For One Night

A warm breeze blows my hair

The stars glow brightly above

I walk towards the sound of water

I can hear the beauty all around me

Even if I can't see it

It's better this way I think

I can imagine what the beauty looks like

Pretend it isn't destroyed like it is

The gravel beneath my feet used to be grass

The smell in the air used to be clean

Now all I can smell is burning all around me

But it's nice to pretend

That the reason I can't see the moon

Is because of the trees that aren't around me anymore

And not because of the smoke that has filled the sky

It's nice to pretend

Just for one night.

Change Your Mind

You say you stand for something

You tell others to believe in themselves

Yet I come home every day

See the cuts crawling up your arm

The drugs are in your system

So you just laugh it off and avoid your new "friends"

In a couple days you'll go back

Say "I relapsed, please forgive me"

Then you'll go a couple days

Telling yourself "I'm better, I can do it this time"

In a few days you'll open the bottle again

Take a couple and laugh some more

Or maybe you'll fill your pipe

Take a couple hits and eat till you fall down

Only then you'll call yourself fat and the cuts will grow

The days without eating will start to show

Your friends will ask questions

Your family will try to help

But you've locked yourself in a box

Built up the walls and convinced yourself this is the right way

You find your little bottle

Swallow whats left

Lick your finger and get whats left on the bottom

Make sure you got it all

Because you think you made the right choice don't you

You start to laugh like you always do

Then the world starts to go black and you get cold

You're scared now aren't you

I wish I could have changed your mind

Come here, I'll hold you till the ambulance gets here

No don't worry I called them when I heard you laughing

They will be here soon

It'll all be over soon

Never forget dearest one

"I love you"

The hardest thing I do

Sitting in this meadow

I feel you touch my hand with yours

Pulling away from you is the hardest thing I do

As all around us the rain pours

I look up in to your eyes one last time

And see the hurt that I have caused

Walking away from you is the hardest thing I do

And in that moment I wish I hadn't paused

You take me by the hand

Pull me close and hug me like you never had before

In this moment I feel the tears in my eyes

I can't hide them from you so you just hug me more

I wish I could promise you forever

But we both know that can't be

Forever is just a dream

And unfortunately for us it was one I had for you and me

Memories Of You

My hands tremble

As I reach for you

My voice waivers

As I call to you

My mind races

As I think of you

You scare me

And make me feel safe

You make me happy

And sad

You said you wouldn't leave

And you did

My hands tremble

As I let go

My voice waivers

As I say good-bye

My mind races

With memories of you

You made me so happy

And your memories still do

You said you wouldn't leave

And you did